themes of now (ongoing investigations)

do what you can with what you have
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make something out of nothing
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that's just an idea you have about yourself (that person, that thing)...what if you had other ideas about yourself? you could have other ideals about yourself. non-attachment. let it go.
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exploring and sharing my humanness as part of my process and in the hopes of inspiring others to do the same - or their version of it - or at least allow themselves to be human
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self-sufficiency
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what are my definitions of / needs for comfort and home? how can i work with them?
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working with letting go of my ideas of perfection, letting myself create and then letting it be what it is, letting its imperfections be beautiful and important and inherently perfect, accepting it all as a part of the process
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sometimes the most growth comes from discomfort - but it's difficult to choose discomfort over comfort, to choose difficulty over ease - who does? what does that look like?
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non-attachment - space for things to enter
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aversion to discomfort
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independence without isolation - independence as a choice rather than an imposed state
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wanting to break down and redefine my relationship to the violin and music. i feel like it limits / restricts access to my creativity
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i desperately want to be an artist. i feel like i am an artist at my core, but i don't feel like i know how to be one now. yet. i don't feel like being a violinist is being an artist. why not? where does that come from?
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cultivate discipline - forcing myself to show up. show up and do your job.
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daily systems
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weekly systems
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i can't build until i know what i'm building!
(dismantle phase --- experiment/explore phase --- build phase)
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tapas: the hard work of healing
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"a genius is one who is most like himself" (thelonious monk)
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taking action without having the "perfect" system mapped out before even starting
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accountability to self
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make a decision, move in a direction
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wabi-sabi: the acceptance of transience. beauty that is imperfect, impermanent, and incomplete
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"i'm an immersion person"