Thursday, March 31, 2011

dance party for one: total liberation

so unbelievably honored to have played on both of these covers by the incredible jherek bischoff. he is just magical. so kind, so himself, so brilliant. one of my dearest friends and collaborators.

i have enjoyed many solo dance parties to these tracks...

THE TERMS: original song by X-RAY PRESS, cover by JHEREK BISCHOFF
The Terms (Jherek Bischoff version) by Jherek Bischoff
amy denio - sax
jherek bischoff - everything else!!


KULE KULE: original song by KONONO NO.1, cover by JHEREK BISCHOFF
Kule Kule (Orchestral Version) by Jherek Bischoff
jherek bischoff - bass / cello
brianna atwell - viola
beth fleenor - bass clarinet
samantha boshnack - trumpet
fred hawkinson - trombone

human buttons!!

i'm human, you're human, we're all human - it IS a shared experience

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

it's time. i'm ready. (and i'm only a lot scared.)

i have hidden from this for 18 months. 535 days, to be exact. i pushed myself to the edge of my abilities, to the place i no longer felt masterful, in control, or safe. i didn't touch my violin the entire time. i didn't even bring it to the theater. i got naked in front of friends and complete strangers (all at different stages of receiving / viewing from a wide array of perspectives - acceptance, love, judgement...) and layed out all of my insides - my wounds, my shortcomings, my hopes, my desires, my thoughts about myself and humanity. total exposure. absolute vulnerability. followed by - let's pretend this never happened and never speak of it again.

i worked until the last second. it wasn't finished. it was never finished. is anything like this ever finished? i demanded a lot out of a lot of people. who was i to do this? i didn't know what i was doing. i was the first to say, "i don't know what i'm doing."

i still don't know what i'm doing.

but after 535 days, the letting go of an old reality, and the acceptance of the process behind the building of a new one, i'm ready to face it.

i am going to watch the video of bridging wounds.

18 months after the premiere, i have tracked down a copy of the closing night's performance and i am going to watch it.


right now.

(stop procrastinating)

BRIDGING WOUNDS: staying the course of uncertainty
presented as the inaugural performance of the LIVE AT THE FILM FORUM series - september 17/18/19, 2009